party..

House party at my joint in two weeks!!
Already having that.. OHMYGOD what if no-one comes!? anxiety..

I sometimes think things like..
I hope I don't die soon, because my funeral would be embarrassingly small..
Or..
Who would tell my blogging mates that I had died..?
Or..
Who would know me well enough to do a eulogy?
Or..
I'll be 40 in two years.. do I need to go on a friendship drive so that there will be a decent amount of people at the party/dinner/holiday away..?

Not that I am equating turning 40 with death.. true.. I am not.. *smirk*

Irrational swirling around your head fears..? Anyone else got them?